Making A Decision ...

... to enjoy the journey.

Lately, I've been feeling edgy, impatient which is not acceptable to me. I've been feeling like my old self, like how I felt before I had my awakening and I don't like it. So my resolve starting today will be to not let frustrations/impatience get the best of me. I think I know why I've had a change in attitude and it's understandable but not right. Dying to self is the only way to live life peacefully. This is when I'm so thankful for His mercies ... thankful for a brand new day where I get the chance to start over and hope that I go back to feeling peaceful and not let my circumstances interfere with my attitude.

So, in order to enjoy the journey, this season that I'm in, I set out to do things that bring me joy. Because one needs to pursue things that pull at our heart.
Besides reading which is one of my passions, {currently reading Secrets to Exceptional Living by Joyce Meyer} I also love to be out in nature. I would say that nature is my first passion. This is a great way to clear the mind and to exercise it by taking in all the beauty around me ... making it a point to observe everything from the big to the small. Sometimes, we do need to leave the four corners of our house and go exploring. Nature is so calming.

Plus, being out in nature is a good way to exercise not to mention that this is one of the best ways for a young child to spend his energy on.
Jacob accidentally grabbed the wrong bike helmet. This one fits him too snug but he wore it anyway.

Motherhood is tough work. I think it's more mentally draining than anything else. This is why I need to pursue the things that bring me joy in life. I need regular moments of refreshment and restoration that will refill my soul ... and this is also were reading books on faith come in as well.

Like anybody, kids need balance I know that but I prefer to have Riley explore nature, the outdoors than taking him to play at a playground. I notice the difference in Riley. He's much calmer, tends not to fret as much and I also think it's good for his little soul as well. Exploring nature is one of the best things I can introduce my child to so he can flourish.

I think God gave me a strong willed child to teach me how to be a better human being overall. Some days have been extremely challenging while mostly it's been an easy ride with him too. But the toughest times seem to stand out a little more ... probably because I'm stubborn and have a hard time with change. I need to learn to be more compassionate and patient. I think this is a good thing, that I know what I need to work on, that's a start. It means that I admit my faults and that I want to be a better mother, person overall.

Until we learn to derive lessons from seasons of failure and loss, we will keep repeating those failures ... digging ourselves into an ever deeper hole rather than moving on as we grow up.
I'm sure we've all been there. Not wanting to listen to that small voice and instead remaining stubborn and continue to behave capriciously. I know I've done it and I've come across loved ones who have behaved this way too.

So I will make the best of a hard day. When I'm feeling overwhelmed I've got to remember to change my train of thought back to positive thinking. I will try to refrain from becoming snappy. I just need to remember to be gentler with myself during these challenging times. This is the key to loving others well.
I need to concentrate solely on the good.